Im trying to reflect and get real sentimental and shit because my birthday is monday and another year has passed, you know? Im always trying to do that. I feel like I haven’t done a good job of documenting all the good stuff this past year. I don’t really feel too sentimental, but this stuff is important to me, so Im sitting on the back porch and writing down every word that passes through my head. Because you know, its all interesting.

My birthday has always symbolized the beginning of one of the best times of the year. Because for one, I was born. Two through a bazillion are the seasons and all that come with the next 4 months. 23 was good. Full of awkward and breath taking beginnings. Its hard to write them all down. 23 was filled with the things life is made of.

There are so many things I’m grateful for this year.

Well Dustin Shea Finn was a pretty good thing from 23..

Im delighted that my family grew when my sister got married this summer, and for all the friends that got married this past year. Some might call 23 my year of weddings. It was crazy and amazing and such an honor to be included in the celebrations of my amazing friends and family.

I am grateful I took 3 different writing classes this 23rd year. Those were amazing and reminded me that I am a writer, and the people in my class, they fed my creative soul. Something I learned is that you cant be a writer unless your writing. So start writing, anything, everything. Just write it down. Half of it you’ll throw out, but it will get you to the good stuff you knew was always there.

My dog. I am not lying about loving a dog. Until you have loved one there is a part of your capacity to love and care that just hasn’t been awoken. Huxley, sheesh. He’s the bee’s knee’s.

Im so thankful to be so in love with my job. Its is such a good thing to love what you do. Its a rare gem.

Im thankful things are constantly changing, because thats how we grow. Learning is so empowering, and im so glad that I am getting to experience that. DO NOT TELL MY OLD SELF, but I am digging this school thing.

Im also really thankful for stretchy pants. They make me feel so good and happy.

23 was great. But im not sad to say good bye to it. I am really looking forward to all the things in 24 right now. im trying very hard to take in this moment though, the last few days of 23.

When i turned 22, Taylor Swift came out with her awesome song about it. Her new album comes out in October and my new mantra will most likely be on her new album. Maybe ‘Shake It Off’.


farewell 23, I loved all you brought me, I cherish you.

XOXO Bitches.


Shelby Kayann


The good things today.

Things that are going right:

I’m obsessed with Meghan Trainor’s song “All About That Bass”

Train tracks with Connor

Books: I’m reading the second book in a series called “Miss Peregrines Home For Peculiar Children” by Ransom Riggs. It was slow going at first, but now I’m wrapped in a world of peculiar children and time traveling. Reading feels good. Next on the list is Kerry Cohens “loose girl” memoir. I. Am. Excited.

I finished two summer classes with an A and a 88. I feel like I have to say 88 because I’m mad it wasn’t an A. But they were my first school like things I’ve taken in four years. So I’m proud.

I’m taking my third writing class for fun. I highly recommend taking classes for fun from places like
They are so chill and you learn fun things. Like how to be a better writer. Or you at least write a lot of notes about it and hope to use them someday.

Ed Sheeran’s new album X is filled with all the relatable shit you love to listen to in your music.

Also this YouTube video makes me so happy.


And William Clark Green is playing at the Wormy Dog this Saturday evening and I’m not mad about it.

Also everything lily allen makes me feel good.

My hair is long. My dog is funny. Dustin is patient and kind and a good time. Idk.

I start anatomy this fall. Mercy. Pray for me.

I want to be vegan but I love ribs and Mac and cheese so that’s hard.

Just try to be better today. More kind, and less angry. Don’t be mean to yourself, listen to more bootylicious, watch Ellen, go for a walk. Do things that are good for you. Eat less Cheetos and more tomatoes and zucchini.

That’s what I tell myself when things feel like they are suffocating me.

Love love love,

Shelby Kayann.