This may be another serious one 🙂
But im sure there will be lots of silly, ridiculous posts too.
Most of the time, I am still trying to convince myself that I am enough. More than I am ever trying to convince anyone else of it. I just watched Brene Brown’s Ted talk on the power of vulnerability http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/en/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html. I love it every time. I am on a journey to figuring out vulnerability. and how to believe I am worthy of love and belonging. It is nice to remember that I am not alone.
Something she says in her talk is “The ability to feel connected is why we are here. In order to feel connection, we have to allow ourselves to be seen.” That is so hard. Most of the time I numb vulnerability so I don’t have to feel uncomfortable or rejected. I pretend, I attempt to make everything that is uncertain certain. I most definitely perfect. I do all of the things she mentions. I want to learn to lean into discomfort and let myself be seen. I want to practive gratitude and lean into joy.
I imagine every person I meet is battling for their life. I want to treat people with love and belonging, and maybe if we all did that, our battles wouldnt seem so big.
Life is sweet and full of wonder and hope and joy.
This is a poem by Mary Oliver that has saved my life again and again. Love her!
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
Love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
Are moving across the landscapes,
Over the prairies and the deep trees,
The mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
Are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
The world offers itself to your imagination,
Calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting—
Over and over announcing your place
In the family of things.